Monday, August 29, 2005
Here I am staring at the screen not knowing what to write for once but merely for the sake of writing and if you thought that previous sentence that I just wrote was pointless then you would be comforted to know that I don't care.
Today didn't feel right, have you experienced those times when the sky looks wrong, your workplace has too few people? When bustling crowds seem quieter than usual and there are less cars on the road then normal? I reached work earlier than usual, but everything was slow, nonchalant and the air felt different somehow.
Premonition?
I seem to be judged by the lesser things least seen by me. Who are they to judge me by my personality, Who are they to judge me by my family, Who are they to judge me by my intellect, Who are they to judge me by my achievements or failures in question. Are you perfect?
You can tell her proficiency has improved well enough to warrant a closer inspection, but what’s the point of even bothering? Ok fine, she knows. I know too. Maybe we all know.
I am so sick and tired of all the lies, two-faced louses and idiosyncrasies, why did I even know to expect it?
Am I even that blind not to have seen it earlier? But I knew it would come, I had anticipated it, but does that mean I need insurance for every little thing?
Maybe a little self isolation will do me good and clear my clouded mind of all disillusions.
All I need now is to be alone, but aren’t I already alone? Looks like it will be another bleak week ahead.
11:00 PM
