Sunday, August 21, 2005
I am shooting myself in the leg and yet I am critical of others in self-suicidal acts, what the heck did I think I was doing? I am tired, emotionally and psychologically drained, physically exhausted.
I seem to be limiting my growth and development. Everything was just peachy, and tongues are definitely wagging behind my back, I am not that dumb and I wonder when they are going to call me to relinquish my position. So meanwhile I'll just take a back stance and see if this dark cloud blows over soon.
The others are only crippling their own progress. The same old dying birds in a dying nest whilst I spread my own wings and soar, letting the wind take me where it deems fit. But is it worth it the sacrifice? Or maybe I will work to regain my lost ground in my personal integrity.
Ok, the white-FX is back online, now to retrieve my data from the hard drive in the XPC. I had a nightmare that I lost all my data and was unretrievable. I'm still working on the XPC. 5 out of 6 computers online. Network infrastructure back to 65%. Just when I am worried about data loss, this has to happen all at once, hard drive failure, dvd-rom failure, blah blah. As if I don't have enough work to do already. At least another day or so before everything will be back the way it once was. I just can already taste the words I am going to say.
Another 6 kilometers, a few hundred reps of situps and pushups, and maybe a quick round of basketball to sum up today. More activities lined up in the near future to look forward to.
11:59 PM
