Tuesday, September 20, 2005
This week has been crazy, and it's about to get crazier. But isn't that what's life all about? Life is always crazy, it has been one meeting after another running here and there, meetings here and there. First I go to school, then all of a sudden I seem to get my hands effectively full of all sorts of matters and have to give directions, instructions, attend meetings, run here and there to get work done and before I know it, half the day is gone before I even get a chance to sit down and start on my project, but somehow or rather I miraculously finished soldering my prototype board today! That itself is an achievement but I'll elaborate more on that later. What I need are clones of myself or robots to carry about my individual tasks.
These few days, preparation for Sabah is nearly complete, the BME society is in full swing and FYP is at it's fever pitch, yet t's only the 7th day and we're all going crazy! And I think these few days I've been talking too much, they think that I am very happy and cheerful these few days, but is that the case?
I don't know but when I went home today I felt suddenly empty, but I guess the breaking of this news has finally completely closed that chapter and episode in my life.
So my prediction has been right, and symptoms have shown. This is probably going to be a long entry since I am not going to write for 2 weeks. I have firmly rejected since the realization of futility, but she still seems to be holding on to the faintest of threads of hope that are non-existent. Why does the other her come into my mind now?
After fighting a writer's block for over a month, I've finally gotten to writing my essay theme. But is it too late? We'll never know without trying right?
I don't know why I am so good in finding out things that I don't want to find out. It's a curse. I'm not growing old anymore, and I feel that I need to clear my evils. I'm leaving the school soon and there are several loose ends that i need to tie up in my life. I think I should leave Ngee Ann with as few enemies as possible.
I've been very busy this week, rushing to complete tasks throughout the whole day and I am multitasking multiple expectations on my back simultaneously. I've been running up and down, giving instructions to everyone and juggling my project but the busier you are, the less you seem to achieve ain't it?
But remember: You're only as stressed as you want to be.
Sabah in 3 days. Much needed break to Kinabalu and fresh air.
8:52 PM
