Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Yesterday I went to school. Hmm you may ask for what? Aren't all my lessons over? Yeah I am officially free, but I've agreed to come back and help guide my juniors with their fyp project. =) I also came back to crack my head for the grad magazine. Actually I don't even know why I agreed to work on it in the first place now that I've been bombarded with doubts of all magnitude. I am the Chief Editor for the magazine and overall designer. But why am I doing all this for? Especially for an unappreciative audience.
Well, "he" is just damn over-presumptuous, extremely sarcastic. He said "I believe you come from a well-to-do-family, so I guess you don't need my help". Well, he's basically NATO "NO-ACTION TALK ONLY". That's why he's not particularly popular with the students. Or maybe we just feel like he's an idiot.
Maybe I am the idiot to do the magazine in the first place. I guess I'll just have to endure that for a little while more till I finish the mag. Back to answering "why are you working on this in the first place, what do you have to gain?", hmm maybe I have nothing to gain, but remember, whatever you do for yourself will be forgotten, but if you do it for others, it will always been remembered. Ok so for the project, I told them the basics and theory and how to go about doing the project.
"How come I know?!" - This phrase has popped up too often. It's quite a weird question, but nevertheless I am always amused when people ask me that, haha information is power! Anyway I was feeling weird initially that there's no more school left. But here I am still in school.. When others are either working, or furthering their studies.
It's suddenly so un-cool to be unemployed.
But today I caught this!
I just love family movies, and this one really hit my sweet spot, I give it 3/5. It's hilarious with the "wars" raged between the two completely different families of different background, one a very liberal mum who believes in free-expression, and another dad who is a military admiral. And later we played some badminton.
I'll like to share this really meaningful song that seem to have touched my heart like "Why does the sun go on shining". It reflects very accurately on my current emotion. Actually I was fine all day, but an innocent question from a friend caused old memories tumbling back like an uncontrollable cascade. And not all of them are pleasant.
This is a song from "Komm Susser Tod by Evangelion". If you want it, get it from me.
I know, I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought I could
live for no one else
But not through all the hurt and pain
Its time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything
So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever
whats done is done, it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending
I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
cant live without the trust from the ones you love.
I know we can't forget the past
you cant forget love and pride
because of that its killing me inside
It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down,
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down,
in my heart of hearts,
I know that I called never love again
I've lost everything
everything
that matters to me,
matter in this world
I wish that I could turn back time
cos now all the guilt is mine
cant live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love and pride
because of that, its killing me inside
It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
10:33 AM
