Sunday, May 28, 2006
Today I dissected an old Pda. The Sony CLie PEG TJ35. It's about 2-3 years old, and after a long illness, it finally died. Not that I was complaining much though, I have a rw1950 and a rx3510. The Pda was one of the first to use the Palm 5.1 ver OS, which allowed media-playback such as mp3s and mp4s. and has a MS slot. No camera/bluetooth or WiFi though, they didn't have it in 2003 on Pdas then.
So I'll be doing some techno-autopsy now.
The Clie PEG-TJ35
The easiest to remove, the battery cover, you can see it's still protected by the copper shield.
The rear-panel removed, you can see the speaker on the (bottom-left) and the MS card-reader on the top right.
The chassis removed.
The copper shield removed, together with the processor board.
The iMX-1 Motorola Dragonball processor! Specs indicate it's a ARM9 processor (not a StrongARM yet though). Top speed rated at 200Mhz. But basically the usual LCD controller, with dual UART ports, PWM (Pulse Width Modulation) SSI, I2C, Bootstrap, MMC/SD/ MS controller/ SP1 and SP2 interrupts. Watchdog and RTC system I/Os. The only difference is the Multimedia accelerator and Video Port. It's got a DMAC (Direct Memory Access Controller) as well.
Not sure what the bottom chip does though, 29Z0005PBT? Can't find any datasheet on that either. Probably an interface chip.
The bottom of the I/O processor board, you can see a proprietory SONY chip on the bottom, probably for the MS controller, and a 32mb SDRAM chip.
The memory chip v54C3256164VBUT7. It's a 256Mbit (16M x 16) SDRAM, LVTTL, ultra low power, 7ns chip.
The bottom chip is the touchscreen driver CXD3523AGG - Maybe a timing generator for the LCD display since the i.MX already has an LCD controller.
OMG, lousy workmanship, double-sided tape?! Well, the product WAS made in China! No wonder when dropped lousy pdas spoil. As do other made-in-china electronics.
The MS card-reader.
Aluminium chassis, on the bottom are the SMD tactile buttons and Sony-scroll-wheel.
More double-sided tape on the rear-panel.
A lithium-Ion battery with no brand, (another cheap china product?) That's probably why the batteries die so fast.
The chassis removed, it is heavy. Modern-day PDAs don't have a heavy chassis like this. Most use polymers now.
The final result of the dissection. The PDA is officially dead now though, the battery is dead as well. 0.74v from a 3.6v Li-ION battery after a full-charge? I think the screen-I/O is damaged as well, as well as the back-light controller.
Oh well, that was fun anyway.
4:37 AM
Friday, May 26, 2006
I've caught X-men 3
Here is the Synopsis:
In X-MEN: THE LAST STAND, the final chapter in the "X-Men" motion picture trilogy, a "cure" for mutancy threatens to alter the course of history. For the first time, mutants have a choice: retain their uniqueness, though it isolates and alienates them, or give up their powers and become human. The opposing viewpoints of mutant leaders Charles Xavier, who preaches tolerance, and Magneto, who believes in the survival of the fittest, are put to the ultimate test – triggering the war to end all wars.
The show is extremely disappointing, considering that I am an X-men buff, I cannot give more than 3 / 5 for this show. Even after careful consideration, I find that I can't even give 3 and a half. Why? Because the movie had a thin plot, poor character development and over excessive use of special effects. Each of the characters had very little development.
That is just the critique viewpoint from a seasoned movie-goer. If you are a X-men buff, then this show is for sure going to disappoint you, if you like watching terrible things being done to your favorite mutants, then this movie is for you.
Warning: Spoilers Ahead.
X3 completely deviates from the original X-men story line. Completely. X1 was the most faithful, X2 was ok since the plot seems rather interesting, but X3? It was a sloppy story line with a lame plot. Brett Ratner (the director) doesn't know what X-men really means. I mean what-the-hell? Professor X dies! Professor X never died until very late in the X-men story, long after Cyclops became the team leader. Then, Cyclops dies! I mean what-the-hell? What"s worst is that Jean Grey killed him! The way she killed him was so stupid as well. Then guess what? Jean Grey also dies! Killed by wolverine! The stupid part of the whole show is that humans have come up with a "cure", saying that mutation is a "disease" and the soldiers were equipped with "cure-darts" that will instantly remove any mutation from the mutant.
Then the stupid part, Magneto loses his powers! Mystique loses her powers as well! Omg, that was incredibly dumb. Plus the "source of the cure is a mutant", Cameron Bright plays the young boy "leech" who has the power to remove mutation from a mutant. Ditto? He's the same young boy from 'ultraviolet' who has the similar power of killing the enhanced humans, X3 seems to have that very similar story line!
In Ultraviolet, a subculture of humans has emerged with a genetic mutation causing enhanced speed, incredible stamina and acute intelligence. As more people are infected and the government becomes increasingly terrified of their growing power, those with the mutation are treated as outcasts. The government sets out to destroy them, but one woman is determined that that doesn't happen: ultra-beautiful, ultra-lethal Violet. With eye-popping martial arts skills and chameleon-like abilities, Violet becomes a rogue warrior bent on protecting her new race -- and seeking revenge on those who created it.
Sounds familiar in X3? Even the actor (Cameron Bright) is the same from 'Ultraviolet', and here he is acting a similar role. The government develops a "cure" put into stupid cure-darts and mutants loses their powers. In the original X-men, where the hell did mutants lose their powers?! Mystique, Psyhlocke, Callisto were never really given much attention in the original X-men and the major X-men hardly had any coverage in X3. Cyclops dies early in the show, Prof X soon after, Jean was never able to control Phoenix and it was the Dark Phoenix controlling her all the time. In the original X-men, Phoenix made her very very strong and she could control that power, here in X3 all she did was kill everyone else and get killed eventually.
The powers of Phoenix were over-exaggerated in X3, she was able to lift cars and a house and even an island! Insane! She never had such powers, the max of her telekinetic strength is only up to a tanker-truck or even a tank, but definitely not a whole house! Yes she could fly, but not blow people up into dust with her thought. There was one scene where she stopped all the darts like Neo from "matrix: reloaded", and blew the soldiers into dust. Magneto raised the whole San Francisco Golden Gate Bridge without much strain, the fight scenes between major characters were short and underdeveloped, like Colossus should be the one fighting Juggernaut, not Wolverine! Angel hardly had any screen time, and the fight between Bobby (Iceman) and Pyro was pathetically short, like a scene from "street fighters", but bobby turned completely into ice, that was cool. Rogue voluntarily went to get "cured", that was incredibly stupid.
Where is Cyclops? Havoc? Rogue? Gambit? Nightcrawler? Banshee? Jubilee? Emma Frost (or White Queen)? Where's Physlocke's energy katana? What's the with speed thingy? Who the hell is the spiky boy? And Moira Mac Taggert barely got 10 seconds of screen time when she is a major character with the X-men!
3/5 I cannot give it better. The director tore the meaning of X-men to shreds without any hope of filmographic redemption. X2 was much better.
11:06 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
This is interesting. Look at what I came across today, Square watermelons! Going at $50 each, straight from Japan. Get them at Jelita Cold-storage! Maybe they solved the "staining-the-side-of-the-mouth-problem" with this nifty solution...
9:38 AM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I got an attachment student yesterday. It's suddenly wierd to be mentoring an attachment student. And to think I was an attachment student less than a year ago! Haha. Interesting. Now I am a mentor...
7:39 AM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Today there was a crazy jam that begun from Bouna Vista to Queenstown, there was an accident on the junction of bouna vista road to Holland drive, some poor soul got knocked down by a bus and there was blood splattered on the road. Police were everywhere and the jam stretched all the way past commonwealth junction! I took over an hour to get to work and ended up walking.
Some poor soul got her brains splattered across holland...
8:46 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
Fallen sick. Guess I pushed myself too far for this. But it'll be one of the best work that I've done. Juggling two jobs at one time isn't easy at all. Kudos to those working mums or single-parent families who manage to do so. Life is about hardship ya 'know?
6:11 AM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
I caught Poseidon. I give it 3/5 for the nice action and intense Sequences where it leaves your heart beating fast. The science is not technically possible in real life, but it makes an entertaining watch instead.
It's New Year's Eve and festivities have begun aboard the luxury cruise Poseidon, at sea in the North Atlantic.
One of the finest vessels of its kind, Poseidon stands more than 20 stories tall, boasts 800 staterooms and 13 passenger decks.
Tonight, many of the ship's guests have gathered to greet the new year in style in the magnificent Main Ballroom. They raise champagne glasses as Captain Michael Bradford (ANDRE BRAUGHER) delivers a holiday toast and the band (led by FERGIE of the Black Eyed Peas) rolls into a version of Auld Lang Syne.
Meanwhile, on the bridge, the First Officer senses that something is wrong and scanning the horizon, he sees it – a Rogue Wave; a monstrous wall of water over one hundred feet high, bearing down on them with tremendous speed. He tries to steer the ship away from maximum impact but it's too late.
The wave strikes with colossal force, pitching the ship heavily to port before rolling it completely upside down. Passengers and crew are thrown into free fall, crushed by debris or dragged into the sea as water bursts in through shattered windows. Supports collapse, broken gas lines ignite flash fires and lights fail, leaving vast sections of the ship in darkness and chaos.
In its aftermath a few hundred survivors are left to huddle in the still-intact Main Ballroom, now resting below the waterline. They should stay together, the captain maintains, and wait here for rescue.
One man, professional gambler Dylan Johns (JOSH LUCAS), prefers to test the odds alone. Ignoring orders, he prepares to exit the Ballroom and find his own way to safety, but is collared by eight-year-old Conor (JIMMY BENNETT), who asks that Dylan take him and his mother Maggie (JACINDA BARRETT) along. Fast behind them is Robert Ramsey (KURT RUSSELL), anxious to search for his daughter Jennifer (EMMY ROSSUM) and her fiancé Christian (MIKE VOGEL). Only an hour earlier this young couple had found it impossible to tell him they were engaged and now face much graver challenges.
Wary of alliances, Dylan reluctantly leads the small band of survivors upward through the bowels of the ship. Those who choose to join them rather than wait below include a shy stowaway (MIA MAESTRO), a suicidal man (RICHARD DREYFUSS) who re-discovers his will to live and a young waiter with knowledge of the ship's layout (FREDDY RODRIGUEZ).
Determined to fight their way to the surface, they must forge a path together through layers of wreckage as the ship continues to sink. Bonds form quickly in this journey of vertical climbs, dead ends and sheer drops. And trust proves vital.
1:51 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
I believe I now know what is my desire. To attain that kind of recognized status and to be in the same echelon as the young intelligentsia. I am working at it! Nevertheless I've started to think seriously about what I want to do about my future, which university do I really want to go to? A university is a definite must.
Take a look at this.
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Engineers, the new endangered species
As a civil engineer by profession, I can tell you why this is true. Engineering is never an easy course. I remember when I was in university, I had 42 to 44 hours of lectures and laboratory hours a week. That translates to 8 hours a day: 4 hours of morning lectures and then running to the labs with your files and working till 6pm.
The Arts, Humanities and Economic undergraduates, who typically had only 12-16 hours a week, would be sipping coffee at the Union house and watching these poor engineering souls running to the lecture theatres and labs.
Best of all, close to 25 years after graduations, these non-engineering students are my bosses! They are now administrators (CEOs and COOs) of companies in which the engineers work. Even the Human Resource manager has a cosier job than the engineer.
That's not all. Who would employ a high salaried engineer these days? If I require six engineers to run my project, I would be better off employing cheaper foreigners to do the job!
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Which is so very true. Since my own profession of engineering will not get me far, I have to start branching out my skill pool. Do I have a chance in competing on the global arena?
I am a competent electronics engineer with a fair amount of experience both in design and industrial applications, strong in chemistry and biology, fluent in English, computer-literate, challenge-oriented, relatively skilled in various software and graphic design. All I need now is to build up my accolades. Unfortunately some people still think that I am stupid.
But still I managed to find time after work to go out with you-know-who. We went to town, first to Tanglin mall because we've never been there I went to see the bicycles at Treknologies and my eyes bulged at the prices, a $4k bike that was so ordinary! But they were also selling the $10k Litespeed racing bike!!! But everything was so expensive.
Anyway, after that I got mom some nice presents for mothers' day and also for her birthday, when I will not be around to celebrate with her anymore.
Then today is the last day of this really short working week, I spent 3 days in the clean room doing lithography. The first 2 wafers were incomplete because we forgot that they were titanium and not gold. And we're afraid of etching titanium because it requires HF, Hydrofluoric acid, the most dangerous kind of acid you can ever handle because the fluorine atoms readily bind to the bone molecules in your body. It will eat through your skin and you won't feel it, by the time it reaches your bone it's too late. It's dangerous, and the corrosive enough to eat through the way you see it in movies...
Come to think of it, I found it quite funny to know now that I was trying to etch Titanium with Chrome etchant, mere Nitric acid. That's really hilarious. Etch Titanium with Nitric Acid! Haha! To Titanium it's a cooling shower..
But this week is a short week, only 3 working days and all I did was lithography in the clean room, but next week is a full 5-day work week again. Anyway, after work I went to school, rather tired out but what to do. Ms Nancy showed me all the problems that the magazine had, but generally they weren't serious except for the project groups and staff photos. Still everything were praises that it's very well done and now they have a headache with a "happy problem" of having too many pages.
But that just means more work for me to do, she gave me 2 cds of more photos and a hardcopy printout of the mag first draft. The magazine comments from the staff were more raves.
Here are some sneak previews of the ECE magazine.
They will soon go to print though. Meanwhile, at least this short week is over and hello long weekend!
9:44 AM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Finally I've managed to write an update in this neglected blog of mine. It's been over a week, but here are some updates on what I've been busy with.
I've not only been working, but working on my magazine as well. And after receiving some votes from both lecturers and my group members, and the votes were all praise =D I guess the winner is going to be the 6th design and I quite liked that design myself too =) After all that is probably my most original design. Anyway, Beginning from several days ago, work was filled with thoughts about the magazine.
Work was no walk in the part either, I had to hurriedly learn a new CAD program, Solidworks. And it was only last Thursday that I am "officially" using solidworks! 2 days to learn a CAD program with nothing. At least I had one tutorial for 3D max and AutoCAD respectively, but solidworks is so much simpler, the program is nearly idiot-proof. The designs that I've drawn so far, are all rave =)
Anyway work was extremely distracting, whilst I was working there were so many trains of thought running simultaneously in my mind, about them, about her, about my mag, about new innovation, thermobaric applications to pulsonic plasma, to pulse-detonation and scramjets, to the microfluidic monolayer electrodes that I was working on, to What I want to study in the near future..
Actually after working as a researcher for some time, I've begun to have an interest in chemistry, because my supervisor was talking to me about what I could do in the future and I asked is there a need to do up till PhD level?
So what kind of industry or occupation requires a PhD? Since I am an engineer, he told me some examples about the electronics industry, such as wafer fabrication, probably new circuit routing and design of chips, things in a micro-fabrication factory that a Masters level cannot handle. Even as a chemical engineer, basic process technicians or machine operators merely requires a degree or a Masters, but if you want to go further into management or R&D, you need a PhD. Do I want to go that far?
Then I had visions of me doing a PhD in materials or chemical engineering. Suddenly I thought of my secondary school days and how poorly I did at school. I wonder what Ms Tan Wenyi will think if she finds out I've decided to do a PhD in Chemistry.
There are only several teachers that came to mind. Haha, I can still remember all the negative forecasts that all my teachers had over each of my subjects. How I struggled with A-maths and Chinese. The disappointed faces of my science teachers when my test papers came back with a less than satisfactory grade and everyone else around me were hitting top grades. Since I was in the "top-class", not getting an A was disastrous.
Nevertheless, Ms Tan Wenyi was my Chemistry teacher and she was very patient with me even though I wasn't that strong compared to the better students like YY, Lek or SY in Chemistry. So every time I didn't get an A, she will give me that "crossed" look and I would smile sheepishly giving some lame excuse. Anyway, she also helped me whole heartedly with my ASYF* project for the NSTS** competition, my project, Antibiotic properties of Aloe Vera. We didn't win though, but the process was very exciting and I learnt a lot along the way, being in the Science Talent Group helped a lot. We got extra privileges to go to the W3 Life-science Cluster to participate in the life science course at River Valley High. That was back in 2001. 5 Years ago. Ms Tan Wenyi supported me through all that. I doubt back in 2001, I had any inkling that I will be doing chemistry in my future and now I am at doing just that. Organic synthesis and chemical engineering.
*ASYF - Asean Science Youth Festival
**NSTS - National Science Talent Search
I eventually got an A at O levels though. The future is in chemistry. Haha, now I got this vision, if I ever do chemistry, I will go and find Ms Tan Wenyi or "Mrs?" in 10 years time. She'll probably have kids in secondary school by then.
"Hey, hi Ms Tan! Do you remember me? Back in CTSS 2000 with the lowest grades in class."
"Hey, of course I remember you, how are you now?"
"Oh I am doing my PhD in chemistry".
"????"
Haha, yeah dream on. I doubt if I'll ever do Chemistry IF I even decide to do a PhD. The future is full of uncertainties. That scenario above was just a fantasy.
Sunday was a holiday, yet I woke up with this great sense of unease. What's wrong? Anyway, yesterday was the heat of talking-point, the elections 2006, but I was too tired to really be bothered about it. Ok, fine, the PAP-controlled Local media are waging a campaign against SDP and other contesting political parties. I've actually read one of "the New democrat" that the SDP is selling for their campaign and I agreed on several issues that they had shown, such as the PAP policies of "Foreigners get the jobs, locals go to NS"The foreign talent are killing Singapore, but the nitty gritty truth is that, we need them to survive.
But why so many gripes? Why not? I am not feeling very patriotic recently, firstly I work so hard in polytechnic to see all the awards go to the foreigners. Damn PRCs. Secondly, I am going to lose 2 years to dumb NS whilst seeing all the uni places and jobs go to the foreigners who come here to study and grab our eventual jobs.
Why pay a demanding local when a foreigner comes cheaper huh? You'll ask. Hell, I would probably do that too. But the Singapore elections 2006 seems a tad boring compared to the elections in other countries, such as the states or in Taiwan, where things are really heated up and people all geared up and in great gusto. It's just boring here. What? Some public rallies? That's all? Where are the road marches? Where are all the posters on every lamp post? Where are the jubilant applause and fanfare and throwing of flower petals? Where are all the leaflets falling from the sky?
If you ask some ignorant or uneducated Singapore, "who is Steve Chia Kiah Hong or Goh Meng Seng? Or Lim Swee Lian Sylvia or Mohammed Rahizan Bin Yaacob?", they may not even know! If you are a Singaporean, YOU BETTER KNOW people like Chee Siok Chin, Low Thia Khiang, Steve Chia or Chiam See Tong. I mean, the GE '06 is just plain boring. Yea, yea, you have a scandal, like James Gomez who failed to hand in the minority form and is now under investigation for "attempting to deceit and cheat the election process and discredit the government". I mean, huh? That's the hottest point that scandals can go here in Singapore? Where's the fun and fiesta?
Ok, so here's the brief final results, of the total 84 parliament seats, 82 went to the PAP (People's Action Party) lead by Mr Lee Hsien Loong who contested for all 84 seats and won 82 with 747,860 vote, 66.60%. The WP (Workers' Party of Singapore) contested for 20 seats and won 1 with 183,604 votes at 16.34%. The SDA (Singapore Democratic Alliance) led by Chiam See Tong contested for 20 seats and won 1 with 145,902 votes at 12.99%, and last of all, SDP (Singapore democratic party) led by Dr Chee Soon Juan contested for 7 seats and won 0 with 45,634 votes at 4.07%.
A total of 1,123,000 votes were tallied, with 26,727 spoilt votes and those who not vote at 97,000. Final results, PAP won 82 seats, the SDA 1 and the WP 1, SDP 0. Any wonder why? Actually, I wouldn't have voted for the PAP myself because of my grouse with their ever-increasing GST prices, CPF-induced illusions, increased cost of living, government-controlled media, price-locking of HDB-government-controlled housing and of course, mandatory 2-years NS with unfair treatment of white-elephants and other expatriate-cases.
But the quality of the opposition this year just plain sucked! I mean SDP had interesting issues to raise. But all their tactics were raised at anti-PAP sentiment (led by Dr Chee Soon Juan, any surprise?). Such as bringing up of the NKF issue, the cost of living, the minister's pay, the NS for locals and jobs to foreigners, the bottom 8% of the population and proposal to peg the ministers pay to the bottom 8% and comparison to other presidents such as Bush and Blair. I found it damn funny, they're like small school kids saying "I don't like you, don't friend you!!!"
Can you imagine a party like that leading Singapore? I wasn't too clear about the SDA though, but upgrading of lifts to woe resident's votes? How much more short-sighted can you get? Actually I was a tad supportive of the WP and would have considered voting them, till that stupid James Gomez screwed everything up.
http://singaporedemocrat.org/
So all in all, PAP wins, with walk-overs in 7 GRCs. What's the point of voting? It's been a PAP monarchy or anarchy ever since they came to power. Maybe in the near future we have the PAP saying "WE ARE THE LAW". If they can remove the Jury from the supreme courts, they can do more.
For the rest of the day I was just doing the magazine omg. I think I am nearly falling sick?
Monday was a company declared holiday! The whole of May is a great month to work because we only have 19 working days! Haha, anyway, I initially had plans today, but the other party cancelled it last minute at 2am. (my hours are all screwed up because I am working on the mag!) So last night I worked till 4am again. This time happily finishing the Mag team 2006 picture as well, and I have to say I am quite pleased with the work I've done.
So Sanjay was online chatting with me till about 2am, then I hit the sack for a nap and woke and we decided to go out to Bugis to check out SLT and catch MI 3 at the same time.
Mission: Impossible 3 synopsis
Super-spy Ethan Hunt (Tom Cruise) has retired from active duty to trains new IMF agents. But he is called back into action to confront the toughest villain he's ever faced - Owen Davian (Philip Seymour Hoffman), an international weapons and information provider with no remorse and no conscience. Hunt assembles his team - his old friend Luther Strickell (Ving Rhames), transportation expert Declan (Jonathan Rhys Meyers), background operative Zhen (Maggie Q), and fresh recruit Lindsey (Keri Russell) - to travel the globe pursuing Davian and rescue Hunt's love, Julia (Michelle Monaghan).
The movie wasn't too bad, a 3 star from me. The action sequences were very Hollywood signature, the fight scenes American, the plot sub-developed, the character-development barely superficial but overall an interesting action-movie.
The plot tries to be "Ocean's 11" with some really nifty theft-like jobs, where they break into the Vatican, the first rescue-job with only 4 men assaulting a big factory to save a captured agent and some really-high-tech weaponry like automated gun-turrets and a inside-agency betrayal to attempt a twist to the plot.
Then the plot goes into something like "true-lies" where the agent has to steal something to get his captured wife back and when he wakes up drugged and escapes he does a series of quick-thinking mixed with high-tech approaches to solve his problem, like running through the street with a gps-enable handphone tracking, escaping the building with nothing but a walkie-talkie and a small knife, very "The bourne Identity", overall well, nothing over too spectacular, nothing fully original as well.
Well after that show we went to SLT and SLS, and I bought another hp rx1950 pda for dad. Anyway dad is a little bit sensitive today and its best not to show him too much at all to begin with no matter how proud I am of my work because all he抣l do besides complimenting will be to get you to help him do something similar for his school.
Then it was back home to work on my mag, finally finishing the first draft in PDF format and man, did that really tax the processing power of my AMD FX64 processor! Hit the sack at 12.45am.
I am tired, been working on my mag whenever I get back from school and the weekend was spent working on it. Talk about 48 hours straight.
Further updates to be posted when I find the energy to do so.
5:01 AM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Ok, initially I thought I was going to have a lousy birthday. Which I nearly did. Stayed at home on my birthday, see my family quarrel and totally forget it about it. It sucked. But what's to do? I have grown accustomed to it. Mood spoilt, so unfortunately I didn't find it a very happy passing. But the next day was so much better! Totally cleared up the mood =)
I enjoyed myself the next day. Lesson learnt: never celebrate with family ever again. Then today I woke up with less-than-pleasant dreams and sent Mr Gwee a series of emails.
Actually what's really bothering me is something that i took bitterly. Apparently it seems that GPA takes precedence over CCA points. So for example. I got 3.9GPA and 140 cca points. Person X got 3.94 GPA and 30 cca points. Person Y got 3.92 and 50 cca points. So person X got the gold medal for cca and person Y got the silver medal. Wtf.
I knew who got the Gold and who got the Silver already. I didn't particularly found it fair at all, what about all the times I went for training? What about all the competitions that I went for? What about the leadership positions that I held? Wtf? All for nothing at all because even if you don't have a cca, your gpa gets you the medal.
Wtf. Sigh, there's nothing I can do about now that I've learnt the system goes by this crapped up method. Really unhappy and frustrated. All the times that I've spent for cca all for nothing. The top 6 positions, none of them even have a solid cca, and I have held 2, both with leadership positions and nothing to show for it. Then wtf am I even working on the ece mag in the first place? It will be for nothing as well. But shouldn't I be happy with a COM as well? After all, better than nothing isn't it?
Anyway, just a small side-line. The past 3 generations, the top graduating student for BME has always been a girl, and the 2nd always a guy. It seems that the first batch (generation) top student was Inge with 29 Ads (29 ADS!!!!). 2nd batch top student, Sherlyn (19 Ads) followed by Hock Wei (a guy), 3rd generation top student, a girl again, followed by a guy again. Next batch? I think I know who's going to be.
Anyway, for my graduating batch. The top 6 students all got 3.9 and above. I've seen the prize winners. Some of them won 8, 10 prizes! OMG INSANE people. The Lee Kwan Yew award winners and Ngee Ann Kongsi winners are insane. I should'nt even have pinned my hopes or even dreaming to win that kind of caliber. Talk about DREAMING, all empty hopes fluttering away. But those people must be really insane from the start to even dream of winning the LKY or Kongsi awards...
I've got some serious frustration to vent at this Thursday's tkd...
8:11 AM
