Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Ok, initially I thought I was going to have a lousy birthday. Which I nearly did. Stayed at home on my birthday, see my family quarrel and totally forget it about it. It sucked. But what's to do? I have grown accustomed to it. Mood spoilt, so unfortunately I didn't find it a very happy passing. But the next day was so much better! Totally cleared up the mood =)
I enjoyed myself the next day. Lesson learnt: never celebrate with family ever again. Then today I woke up with less-than-pleasant dreams and sent Mr Gwee a series of emails.
Actually what's really bothering me is something that i took bitterly. Apparently it seems that GPA takes precedence over CCA points. So for example. I got 3.9GPA and 140 cca points. Person X got 3.94 GPA and 30 cca points. Person Y got 3.92 and 50 cca points. So person X got the gold medal for cca and person Y got the silver medal. Wtf.
I knew who got the Gold and who got the Silver already. I didn't particularly found it fair at all, what about all the times I went for training? What about all the competitions that I went for? What about the leadership positions that I held? Wtf? All for nothing at all because even if you don't have a cca, your gpa gets you the medal.
Wtf. Sigh, there's nothing I can do about now that I've learnt the system goes by this crapped up method. Really unhappy and frustrated. All the times that I've spent for cca all for nothing. The top 6 positions, none of them even have a solid cca, and I have held 2, both with leadership positions and nothing to show for it. Then wtf am I even working on the ece mag in the first place? It will be for nothing as well. But shouldn't I be happy with a COM as well? After all, better than nothing isn't it?
Anyway, just a small side-line. The past 3 generations, the top graduating student for BME has always been a girl, and the 2nd always a guy. It seems that the first batch (generation) top student was Inge with 29 Ads (29 ADS!!!!). 2nd batch top student, Sherlyn (19 Ads) followed by Hock Wei (a guy), 3rd generation top student, a girl again, followed by a guy again. Next batch? I think I know who's going to be.
Anyway, for my graduating batch. The top 6 students all got 3.9 and above. I've seen the prize winners. Some of them won 8, 10 prizes! OMG INSANE people. The Lee Kwan Yew award winners and Ngee Ann Kongsi winners are insane. I should'nt even have pinned my hopes or even dreaming to win that kind of caliber. Talk about DREAMING, all empty hopes fluttering away. But those people must be really insane from the start to even dream of winning the LKY or Kongsi awards...
I've got some serious frustration to vent at this Thursday's tkd...
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