Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Today is actually a nice day, and a rainy weather that will normally dampen moods only served to cool the sweltering heat. But I can't help feeling quite fucked up. My tech stuff is failing, and that really lowers morale. My $30 cheap china-branded Mp3 player failed. It "died" showing the equivalent mp3 blue-screen of death.
That sucks. Moreover, for the past 2 weeks, my storage computer can't boot! Something wrong with the OS or the hard drive, I don't think I will lose any data, but still, it can't boot. With this minor setback, I am seriously considering vista installation to be the new OS instead of the old XP that I am running.
I don't feel sad over just one thing, it's an accumulation of negative events or thoughts running through my mind, like it's already mid-August and up till now I still don't have any university applications for the states, when the deadline is at the end of this year? What am I doing about it?!
My battery is quite screwed up, I keep worrying about unfinished work every day and that affects my mood, and in the end, I can't sleep properly at the end of the day. Just as I finish one set of paperwork and send it out in the email, a new email pops up and demands my attention. It's very frustrating because damn Alpha Battery is very "geh jua", in hokkien that means "doing extra things that no one else does", because the upper management that is totally screwed up, the heads up there hardly bloody know anything that's happening on the ground yet make unreasonable demands that is extremely taxing and laborious, requiring time-consuming paperwork and unnecessary tedious changes and instructions for the smallest of events and monitoring of the minutest of details that works everyone to death on a daily basis, they demand reports to be submitted of the highest quality, yet they only spend several minutes browsing through it. But it takes up a lot of time to generate that one report! Then once they are done piling up all that work on us with a simple sentence from their mouths, they take leave... off... MC... emergency leave....
wtf..
Sigh, I feel completely jaded at work. Don't get me wrong, I have no qualms serving in NS, and I don't mind taking up arms to train hard in defending our country. I don't mind going outfield on exercises. But what I mind is an incompetent head that piles his work on you and demands unnecessary time-consuming laborious reports that serve no purpose whatsoever when they are constantly absent. The rank structure is an immense flaw in the military organization during peace-time.
Then I've survived the last kind of tough training in BMT, survived the toughest Wing in OCS, and now serving in an active unit, so when I return home jaded and exhausted, nevermind, I can endure all that.
But I still have to put up with immature privates and other NSFs alike bitching, whining and complaining how tough their job is. There was this guy I once knew in Primary school and he was *$%^& COMPLAINING TO ME HIS JOB IS TOO TOUGH?
He's a $%^* RP PRIVATE!!!
*^&@!%!!!
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